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Hi and Assalamualaikum!

Waaah, kejap je dah last week of Ramadhan.Then Eid 🌌 I wonder if I still boleh receive duit raya 😁

So, last firday I ikut my aunt (aka kakak cause I selesa panggil kakak) berbuka with her officemates. The whole family ikut, not just me and her. Oh, my sister, H pun ikut. Kitorang iftar dekat Arina Skyview KL. The view, masya Allah! Cantik!!! Cuma later at night, tak nampak sangat pun view sebab petang tu hujan 😞 I memang suka sangat tgk view tau. Mcm lampu kat buildings, skyscrapers, gardens, seaview and all peace kinda view tu. Even one of my friends panggil I orang tua sebab suka tgk lampu buildings especially at night LOL. So bila tak nampak sangat view tu, mcm sedih sikit lah 😡

The food was UMMPH! I makan almost all lauk (R.I.P diet 😱). Ada burung masak lemak with nangka, ayam goreng rempah, udang goreng with telur (if I’m not mistaken), sambal sotong with petai (I ate it and later regret), and macam macam lah. Not to forget the KAMBING GRILL yum yum my fav!

Biasalah bila dah puasa, lapar satu hari tu buat nafsu membuak buak bila tgk lauk sedap banyak-banyak mcm tu. Alhamdulillah, habis gak lauk yg I ambik cuma lepas tu pergi balik toilet je lah 😓

Even dah pergi berbuka kat tempat best mcm tu, I thought I’ll be okay. But I guess I wasn’t ha ha ha. I did some dumb actions recently. He said “later after I’m tired of her, you’ll be the only one” So from that ayat, it gives me hope even I know I shouldn’t simpan hope. I mean, if ada jodoh, then adalah so I shouldn’t ada harapan yg we’ll be together again. I sent text to him. Regarding that lah. And he mengamuk which leads to not talking to me for few days already.

I even dream that he doesn’t want to be friend with me. Kiranya dah takde pape with me. Haish, I guess I should just wait and see, kan? Don’t contact him unless he contact me first, Don’t hope but keep on making myself a better human, a better person not just to me but to my friends, family and even strangers.

Yes, I think I should do that. But paling penting, I should jaga my relationship with Allah. Tbh, I tak jaga solat langsung selama ni even tho I ni kira tahu most of the basic rules in Islam. I regret okay. I do. So, bila dah break up ni plus it’s Ramadhan kan. I terdetik hati nak jaga my solat, nak baca AlQuran. I tak buat banyak but there is something I did lah. My solat tu, Wallahualam lah but for now, alhamdulillah. Zohor, Asar, Maghrib and Isya’ dah jarang tinggal. Subuh je selalu tertinggal sebab I selalu tak bangun sahur -.-’

Oh!Not to forget, I dah beli baju raya!!!! I've bought red Kebarung, with silver-maroonish kain songket for the bottom, and dusty pink tudung. Baju sama with H cuma tudung je lain. Eh wait, KASUT PUN SAMA LOL 😂

I rasa that's it for  now. May Allah bless everything I’m doing. I wanna change, I wanna be a better person. I taknak jadi the Aisha yg dulu. Tata 👋

Ps: my baby Umar masuk Hospital due to demam, batuk and all that nasty virus 😭

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